. ShAtTeReD gLaSs ^><^ .
Oh god, why do I always mixed with the wrong type of guys that are playful, no sel-confidence and playboy sometimes...am I being very nice to them??? Is that where I'm wrong? Why must i always end up being hurt by the one I loved... even if it is a test, why must it be that special one? Can't i have somebody special of my own...there will always be obligations, boundaries as in meeting, schedule never allow it or meeting only at night...
I'm terribly sad as I told the guy I love to go with his ex, but deep down, I so SHATTERED as why do I meet him in the first place if this were to happen... now I'm not sure whether is he still sincere with me, or just some EMPTY PROMISES like what he did to the rest.... 50% happy and another % sad...
YES x3!! I admit, that I've fallen for him but at the same time, I dont know why I feel happy for my another friend who loved him so dearly...if they were together... I prayed so much that if he were to choose me, then everything's settle but it seems like not and its affecting my whole journey of life.... Day by day i love him more and more...he's what i expect him to be..
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Posted by Batgirl at 3.11.09
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. Work, Love & Life .
Like my job
Happy with life but
Miserable with love
Sometimes it came 3 things in one go...
I faced these three emotions at work too...
I like this guy but i felt miserable as he's not the same nationality as me
and his character able to make everyone happy....
I prayed that one I'm blessed with a guy like him well, except for the drinking and smoking part....
Every minute by the day, I started to think my past with Your Royal....
I wonder where, when and how can we meet again...
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Posted by Batgirl at 12.8.09
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. Revolver!! .
My Love's A Revolver!!Well, actually that saying is true... AH!! It makes me thing of Your Royal more ever since he's a policeman after NS. I hope we get to meet again someday. Every little things that happened really does leave a connection with him. Inside Madonna's Revolver lyrics also indicates the word smooth criminal which also link to him... GOSH, why can't I just make him as a friend, I hate the feeling of waiting for him in time to come even though I know there are other good guys out there... It makes me sick and miserable...
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Posted by Batgirl at 17.7.09
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. 2 mYsTeRiOs .
Appointed and started to venture in the Design Department, fun get to learn three activities in A DAY!! Today, I learnt about emails and internet reauest forms. Notes jotted down but need to brush on with hands on (practical) whenever's possible. Since I'm doing proofreading, so I can't handle my previous tasks, designer were assigned to their own major tasks. Auww, missed the fun....
Well, here's the painful part and difficult to let it off me. Two guys whom I know of and ever since the joining in with the DDs. I kind of let my own feeling take over me. I treated them as friends but no matter what, I can't lie to my heart that the fact remains....ehmm....(sign)...
Is it true that guys are shy towards girls that they admired? Or loved? I need CLUES!! Funny thing is that he act and behave differently towards other girls. Well, I'm still figuring out...I'll just wait and see how far he remains shy towards me, much of a gentleman I could say...
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Posted by Batgirl at 20.1.09
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. +-_-+ Miss you, Royal +-_-+ .
There are no reasons in love
It flows from heart to heart You always have the biggest heart
when we're 6000 miles apart
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The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be felt or seen
but must be felt with the heart
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There are no roses as lovely as your smileThere are no days brighter than
the days I spend with you
There could never even be words or action
strong enough to express my love for you
just my heart that's missing you
+_*_+
When the night comes, look at the sky
If you see a falling star, don't wonder why
just make a wish, trust me it will come true
because I did and I found you
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Posted by Batgirl at 6.8.08
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. See You Again, RoYaL .
Please listen to the words of my theme song, or background song cause it means so much to see my most precious lover and all my beloved friends.
Oh, Whoa Whoa Whoa, I, I can't wait...
to see you again....
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Posted by Batgirl at 27.7.08
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My ex-classmate getting engage, my colleague also getting engage, so much marriages going on this year, not including my other friends whom i lost contact with. Some are so young and so eager to get married, its like out of thousand fishes in the pond, they already made up their minds in figuring which fish are theirs. Well, wish all of them happiness and prosperity.
Yesterday, I met my exclassmate either from San Shan primary or Ahmad Ibrahim, he was so grown up and so charming, still remains the same look, clever in maintaining, got the boyyish or bad boy look. He boarded the same train and alight the same stop at Yishun, I wanted to called him out but I was in a sick mood so I cannot show him my sick look, otherwise dont look professional or the mood to talk.
Felt unwell today and mc for two days, there goes my pay, lots os people believe that I am love sick. All i can do is chuckled or laugh to myself, perhaps that could be the case or maybe overwork too much. I suffered from muscle ache from my neck to my shoulder due to wrong use of the pillow or use the comp at work too much, I couldn't explain it but the visit to the doctor was fun just now, so charming. I really hope I get to meet my Royal again, sooner or later my confessions for him will be revealed face to face.
As for Sean, my dear Drama King whose substitute is now Imran, hehe...you guys rock, so much attitude and bravery to venture yourself, I hope you will go for the girl you admired with, sean.
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Posted by Batgirl at 9.7.08
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. Kat Deluna's 9 Lives Album .
Here's the biggest surprise I received from Kat's song entitled, "Love Confusion", where else Madonna was "Love Profusion". Both contains love and both also my favourite top list of my life, I cant live without these two inspiring artists and also not forgetting Hilary duff!!! It's because Kat Deluna and Hilary shared my age so we undergo lots of similarities with love!!:>
Due to the reason why I am in a confusion mood most of the time or should I say.....all the time..hehe...I can't seem to figure out how to explain my feelings towards this guy.
So here's the lyric that shared my Love Confusion:
Don't know how we got this far
So attached now and this gets me
Like a thief you stole my heart
And I fallen in love so unfairly
(Boy I hate that my)
World revolves around you
(And I hate my heart)
Cause it hurts without you
(Chorus)
Why, why am I so lost in you?
And I don't even know me anymore
Why, I don't know why I'm so confused
Cause I'm hating that I love you this much boy
Confused (x3)
You gave me goosebumps, every time
My heart skips a beat when you touch me
I'm so mesmerized
Who told you, you could be mine?
I'm mad at you for this nice surprise
(Boy I hate that my)
World revolves around you
(And I hate my heart)
Cause it hurts without you
(Chorus)
You see I love you,Then I hate you,And I hate to,
cause I love you And I need you, then I don't need you
I don't know just what to do
I think I hate you, yes I hate you
Wait, I love you, I love you
I'm really so confused,I love you, yes I do
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Posted by Batgirl at 24.5.08
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. Our Friednship Story .
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Posted by Batgirl at 10.5.08
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. M's 2008 Album .
Well, I thought that I could think about it wisely on not buying it but afraid of losing out the best sounds from the original album. I bought it today at Sembawang Music Centre.
As soon as I reached home, I switched it on and guess what... I fell completely in love with the tracks like Give it 2 me, She's Not Me, The Beat Goes on and on, Devil's wouldn't recognise you, and most of all is Heartbeat cause its so much of me, the symphony, rhythm wise, music and lyric wise are all my cup of tea.Labels: Person
Posted by Batgirl at 2.5.08
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. *^*^* Just Good Friends *^*^* .
I am his Special Friend then again... we are just good friends but when we are together, face to face, our feelings starts to tell us through our eyes when we gaze at each other.... so deep down I understand him very well as though we are lovers,
but how could that be when we are just good friends?
Strange weird things starts to happen coincidently almost everything that is happening to whatever we are facing in our lifes that can relate to our topic of discussion and incidents that we experienced and faced day by day. Am I his?
but how could that be when we are just good friends?
His caringness and characteristics are so humourous that made me delighted and amused, also wonder whether to confess my feelings or not. Whenever something strikes me, it reminds me of him cause that something I saw excites him so much whenever we share our stories of what I and him faced day by day.
I want to do more activities with him, explore certain things with him but there will always be a boundary or transparent wall between us... and it is us being each other's "GOOD FRIEND"~`~
To him, I don't think I can be more than that....but I always kept my memories that we shared together.Labels: Person
Posted by Batgirl at 1.4.08
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. ~`!`~ Happy Heart's Day ~`!`~ .
To my friends, for I always remember and love you all no matter where you guys are....
To my parents, who specialise me in a way...
To my lover, who is so mysteries in your way and you've enchant me to mesmerize the way you are...
To my both sisters, who taught me to respect my parents no matter what happen...Labels: Person
Posted by Batgirl at 26.3.08
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. ^*^ Tatty Teddy ~ Your Royal ^*^ .
This is from Me to You!!!Labels: Person
Posted by Batgirl at 18.3.08
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. @@@ An Ancient Scroll @@@ .
Dear Royal,
If only you know how much I missed you and want you but then again, now is not the time for me to reason out......
So I just let it will be and I hope we will still be as close as how we used to be, all the stuff we shared.....
No matter how your attitude is....I will always be there to lend a helping hand......
P.S Doesn't mean it says love is dying so my love is dying but just to put the scroll for fun cause its nice.....
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Posted by Batgirl at 27.2.08
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. Are You The One For Me??? .
Oh boy, what should i do? I don't behave like myself lately, its like everywhere i go, i develop that strange feeling that he's watching me from afar eventhough i know he's not there. Oh, what am i saying?
It's like we have the sense of teleporting. Everytime with his laughter or smile just enough to make me happy throughout the day. I'll just wonder in years to come, will we still be together? I'm not being sensitive or full of myself. I have my own self-reliance.
Why do we meet, why do we have to be so close when we know that we are just best friends? WHY WHY WHY??? The more he wants help so badly, eventhough sometimes it turns out to be selfish, the more I can't complain and cared for him. This shows that love NEVER dies somehow....Labels: Person
Posted by Batgirl at 18.1.08
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. Start off with Day 1 - 3 .
Hmmmm....well, i walked and reached my work place quite safely and not getting lost when I was searching for it. On the day I signed the contract at RecruitExpress in Raffles, I went to take a look at my job location. I alighted at Yio Chu Kang then I walked passed the Yio Chu Kang Swimming Complex and Stadium, before reaching my work area, I have to pass the chinese temple and always there will be a dog guarding the bus stop. It's exactly like a police dog.
I was scared out of my wits cause the dog has no leashed and its blocking my way. Well, all I have to do is hope for the best to reach there on time. I went home then get prepared for all my formal clothes to go to work the next day. I went shopping with my sis just to buy my office wear clothes. So troublesome.
Almost told everyone but I can't remember that much person. The next day, I reached worked at 7.50am cause I afarid I might get lost somewhere so the earlier the better. I must change my pass then meet my supervisor I think to assist me to the lady who worked in the Cards Business Dept. I got four staffs to assist and guide me. I have to staright away knwo what I' doing before turning to 1 month.
Most Malays and I get along pretty fine except for one particular lady who she thinks she knows everythingm, doesn't want to share what are the machines the operates all the reports. My favourite was the report cause its so brain processing. Not too easy or difficult. I learnt new stuff and software that I never came across upon but thank god I took the Volunteer for IRAS so I got a few knowledge to help me work it through.
If its not because of the lady, I wouldn't chose to quit but before I were t quit of course I have to feel thankful for my job. Mostly everyone there is 25 and above. Soem maybe 30 or 35 above. I got three friends who are also temp but hteir contract is only up to 6 months. After Dec, I will be left alone, but who knows maybe someone better will be coming in. lets hoep that I got to go home early once they know that I've improved in my work.Labels: Person
Posted by Batgirl at 4.9.07
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. ~14th Rehearsal ~ .
Nothing much but bad news that someone booked the room for comms hub. We end up in the staff lounge which is inside the kitchen. very near to the 3 VIP rooms. All the cast were there with Sofia, Wahida, Khairul and Haiqal. I was the one that is late..well...don't ask me why cause someone inform me late at night to ask me to find something. OFF!!!!
I hate late notice and last minute stuff, I thought I would quarrel with him one to one but notice all the trouble and last minute voice recording, the anger just won't let out of me. The microphone something wrong. I taught of using the my mic and sofia's but then I know he never listens to me. No wonder lah the work can't be done. I felt like crying on the spot after he said those words that shocked me. I automatically think that I'm being used. Well, actually I already knew I am. But I can't think of that right now cause its my responsibility to continue with the project.
Anyway he doesn't love me so why must I care whether he would talk to me after that or not. Whether he's right or wrong, who has the right answer in this world anyway?!!! Just speak my mind. Well, I know one thing straight is that I am not revengeful and jealous cause it will immolate my heart.Labels: Person
Posted by Batgirl at 27.8.07
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. ~* 8th Rehearsal for TDS 07 *~ .
WEEEEE!!! Bad news cause I arrived late to retrieve the key from Mdm and when I was about to take, Idah was there. I felt like asking Idah to take but then I already told Mdm that I will take it so she and I together grabbed the key and I was 10 minutes late...AH!!!! I hate it man... Always late, due to last minute plan. Met sofia in the student hub then we proceed to the comms hub, switch on the air-con and she accompanied me for a while. She asked me to calm down and relax.
The casts came in, only Wendy and Jenny wasn't there today. Iskandar came later, azhar got NAFA. He only came for 1 hour, poor dear. We rehearsed from the opening entry to the class scenes wiht the divas and teacher scolding them. I love their acting and their so motivated and spontaneous. the best thing about them is taht they never give up trying. WELL DONE DIVAS, BMW, TEACHER, SECTION HEAD, FART GUY AND WIFE!!!! (Cast members) You guys are wonderful people to work wiht.
Wahida was so hilarious and I can really share my opinion and thoughts if I were to work with her. I can express it out. Tmr have to discuss the scripts to finalise it, then bind it then practice the whole thing over again.I hope tmr I really could do the whole scenes with them, to make me feel satisfied in seeing the thing work.Labels: Person
Posted by Batgirl at 21.8.07
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. -=-=- ITE GrAdUaTiOn CeReMoNy 2OO7 -=-=- .
Only mariam, maia, sean, hanis, steph and ain came so far.....
~_~_~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NADIA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ~_~_~
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Posted by Batgirl at 29.5.07
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. MiSs YoU, YoUr RoYaL .
Your inspiration still wonder in my heart, mind & soul.
Greatest inspiration about you are your POEMS..
Couldn't forget all the reasons and explanation you gave me
about how you do your job for the past few years...
Admiration for your good heart for all the members,
encouraging them to do what their interested in...
Couldn't bare to let you go without a chat first
Certainly needs encouragement from somebody
no matter how independent you can be...
Great mindset in preparing or looking forward for your future,
Fancy in knowing that you can draw...
A perfectionist, that's what you wanna be
A mysterious & aslo a creative guy...
Love the spirited energy you have when you
want to achieve something so BADLY...Labels: Person
Posted by Batgirl at 15.1.07
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There are no reasons in love
I am his Special Friend then again... we are just good friends but when we are together, face to face, our feelings starts to tell us through our eyes when we gaze at each other.... so deep down I understand him very well as though we are lovers, 
To my parents, who specialise me in a way...
To my lover, who is so mysteries in your way and you've enchant me to mesmerize the way you are...
To my both sisters, who taught me to respect my parents no matter what happen...
Dear Royal,
